pathetic
Friday, February 22, 2008
whatever i'm doing now, i think it's damn pathetic. reading other's blog and realising that i haven't got a life of my own. otherwise what would i be doing at others' blog? helen, we miss you loads! it's sad that she ain't coming back. fiona gave wrong info about helen screwing up her results (which she didn't) thus not coming back. turned out xiao liang and chun wei gave more accurate info about her not coming back due to her dad's health (eyesight). she didn't come online or anything which is why we couldn't ask her directly. sighs. she could have told us but still.... she didn't. oh wells. can't be helped. i'm sure she has her own reasons.i so sooo sooooo soooooooo want to get a bf man! it's so annoying cuz..........i don't know why? hmmm.... that's not true. i know why. everyone's getting hooked up with some one or another and it's kinda lonely all by myself. dreams are getting weirder too. the content of my dreams are synchronizing with my emotions which makes it freakier.and................ it's really embarrassing but....... oh fuck it. nvm.
♥ occasionally sane but mostly weird 4:17 pm.
this CNY
Saturday, February 09, 2008
this chinese new year has been...............quite out of the norm. i wanted to write about Mad Jack before but forget it. the dining experience was horrid save for their foccacia bread. anyway, this is one of the weirdest cny i've ever had. bro, sis and dad are in perth so it's kinda boring with my mum only. she's not exactly a bundle of fun so..........it is quite boring too. quite fickle so original plans can NEVER be counted on. so much for one movie per day during her off-days....sighs. xanne's grandfather died on cny day itself. best thing is that i didn't know anything about it. or even the shuttling between hospital visits and pre-CNY preparations etc. before that. i'm such a lousy friend. things just cropped up and i have neglected my friends. mostly my fault though. can't blame no one but myself for the distance i've placed between myself and them. i just didn't make the effort to stay in touch, and stay close to them or even make the effort to know about how they have been doing. lousy lousy lousy lousy friend. gawd. i'm so -sad? disappointed? angry? letdown?- at myself.xanne, hubbs, jie, tor, xy, mel, and mon........... ttkj, clem, wy, r, alas, ken, ys............... gomenasai! oh. and nszm went M-I-A. like in the full sense of the meaning of MIA. oh wells. can't be bothered to find out wad exactly happened but i did try for er......... one night.i wanna go on movie marathon, shopping and eating! sighs. think i'll go accompany xanne at her grandfather's wake tml. at least i can do something to make it up to her for being such a lousy friend. hmmm... that's one good point to it. i don't have to wear red! funerals means black and white colours right? it beats worrying about not wearing red during cny.movies i want to watch:-27 dresses-Ah Long Pte Ltd-Cj7-Death Note (not out yet. 21st feb. dang! not here... someone buy dvd and send it to me please!)-Leap Years (not out yet. 29th feb! someone buy the dvd and send it to me please!)-the 2 afghan boys movie- forgot the name-Sweeney Todd (hear it's good but gruesome. will watch it after watching all those)things i want to buy:-the 2 bags i liked at cine-wedges-printed havainas slippers!-forever 21 shirt dress-can't rmb the rest....things i want to do:-take neos!-go shopping-eat-watch moviesthings i want to eat........................................................................-not sure for now but i just don't really want to eat alone. kills the joy of eating...Labels: this CNY
♥ occasionally sane but mostly weird 11:46 pm.
lonesome
Friday, February 01, 2008
dang. i knew i was tired but NOT this tired. fell asleep soon after i reached home. DANG DANG DANG. the gao li mao shan wang sucks. it doesn't reach the standards. its supposedly to be made out of egg whites to be soft and fluffy but it tasted like bread. thick and the interior liquid durian didn't taste fantastic either. though the durian mochi tasted way better, the first time i tried it was better too. one thing can never change is the taste of the flowing custard bun. it always tastes so good. YUM. the xiao long bao too. though the top is still too hard, the soup is still yummy. =) frog leg porridge was average but whoever puts lettuce into porridge?...... it had the lettuce taste and dried fish that overwhelmed the tasteless frog leg. but two thumbs up for the cook who put sesame oil in the porridge before serving. the sesame oil did wonders for the porridge. next time i want to try the rose tea. =) another bad part? wayyyyyy too expensive. it cost $52.70 for just these dishes+appetizer+tea+gst+tax. good thing? the appetizer is yummy. sesame honey coated pecan. my fav hongkong snack.anywayyyyyyy, valentine's day is approaching. and dang. another lonely day ahead. maybe it's destiny. funny how past years when i had boyfriends, i'll always be boyfriend-less during the cupid day. this year is different. i thought maybe zh, xanne and i could celebrate it together like the time in sec 4. we celebrated that day together 3 years ago. zh has plans with her bf and xanne isn't so sure with her internship and maybe plans with other friends. maybe just having a few close friends isn't that great an idea afterall. plenty of friends and good friends would mean company. sighs. i miss mon. wished she was back from indo.i've been thinking about this all morning. was he trying to flirt with me? it's so weird to think about it. nothing will come out of thinking too much except stress so yeah. i'm going to stop thinking so much.
♥ occasionally sane but mostly weird 5:46 pm.