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Friday, February 17, 2006
this blog is nearly defunct and so everyone thought. this is also my first time blogging ever since perth. i miss IJC! i miss 0611C which will soon break up. i miss touch rugby! i miss canoeing! i miss tennis! and now touch rugby has the guys team!!!!!!! so cool! maybe the girls and guys can train together. lol. haha.. don't think mr lee would ever let that happen. the girls in touch rug are really boy-crazy and hyper that maybe no training would ever be done. considering that there's a match in April, i think he'd train them even harder. lol. i even miss the trainings. the cradling of the "baby" aka the rugby ball. i seriously wouldn't mind cradling the baby and tossing it a million times if i can trade perth for it. shaowen joined the touch rugby guys teams! that means many girls would get distracted already. hmm... but he has a girlfriend!!!! AND i must make it clear first in case ppl like mon thinks otherwise.... dots. he's only a good friend. and it's not good to get mistaken cause his gf is natalie's(my good friend from camp) friend in rvh.
ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!! there's this expedition for j2s tml! I'M SO JEALOUS! i would be the one out in the sea kayaking if i was still there. somehow i can't help but wish i never came to perth. there is too many things i can't bear to leave in singapore yet i left with so many regrets. i haven't played in the touch rugby match which i really wanted to play, i wanted to train with the j2s with vinleon(a j1 like me and he's a super nice guy!), take our 3 star course together and play tennis and suss the coach when he teaches us the wrong strokes. i want my sunshine girl xueyuan, i want my sunny girl roxanne, i want mel, i want mon, i want peiyu, josephine, shuzhen, siewhua, malati, grace, minloo, shahida, shafinaz, khairyn, lisda, valerie, xiaofen, hubbs, jie, yuxuan, afiq, khairul, khairee, engchuan, shawn, jazimin, vinleon, all the touch rugby girls, canoeing and tennis ppl! i don't even mind having history class with the super boring gay teacher and having the egoistic and self-consumed samuel in my history class flirting with all the girls' school girls and having him in the same cca as well. seriously, just if only i can trade it all to be back in IJC. that's all i want and wish for.
somehow it feels like i'm living out my dreams in other people like eg. shaowen. we were in the same OG and now he's joined touch rugby in addition to the canoeing which he joined at first. i don't know why he joined touch rugby despite so many things but yea. i'm really glad he did. then i can keep asking what happened! somehow or other, it feels like i've never left ijc at all. it never crossed my mind to think that i'm no longer part of ijc. it sucks to think that way and now that everyone's O's are out, everyone is going to split up. mel, xy, jo, and some others aren't going to stay. shaowen is still staying despite his 15 points and the offer from acjc, so is peiyu, shuzhen, afiq too i think. the rest i don't know. lol. xanne and ah gong are going to poly. don't know if hubbs and jie are going to stay in tj but who cares? my heart remains with ijc. it's the best jc ever!
even homestay has lost its appeal to me. at the beginning, homestay became the only source of attraction in perth. being my only source of accompaniment and entertainment, at least i didn't feel so dejected about perth. but now... things have ceased to be the same. twinny, felix and joshen are hooked onto computer games. i'm the pea in the mattresses. i don't want to and can't play computer games. i've seen the way computer games control my brother and nikki. i know the damage they can do and i don't want to fall victim to them when i swore i would never touch them everytime i see the people i love and once cared for being victimized. i vowed not to be controlled by some digital manipulator.
henceforth, i feel detached from their digital and real world. that's another reason why i've returned to blogging. if one sees the trend as to when i blog, maybe one would understand how i feel now. i just hope that no one senses that i've returned to blogging that no one would see my entry. i've gotten sick of people questioning me for the umpteen times about things i do not want to explain or talk about. can't u just see the sign: BUGGER OFF? can't the hint and leave me alone.
anyhow, i miss meisy a lot. josh(my bro) has his gf already which accounts for his behaviour just now. dots. oh wells. at least sisters are better. they wouldn't neglect you just because they have their other half. she writes and sends the cutest emails and letters. even her pictures are damn good.
oh wells. if they are still going to be hooked with their dumb computer games, maybe i'd just go out with may afterall. twinny's so hooked to it that it's hard to get conversation out from her unless it is about computer games, "cooties" or some other guy. i might just end up having more fun with may. hopefully shelina can find out where the bowling, swimming or badminton is then we can all go and play. i'm crossing my fingers real badly otherwise there is seriously nothing better to do. hmmm... maybe it's time for me to start getting hooked to dvds but i don't feel like it just yet. going out would be the cure but no. i don't know how to go out myself and besides, i don't know how to go to places! perth's shopping is so dotty and yea... expensive. lol. please god, make my life less of a living misery. thank you lord. hallelujah. amen.
♥ occasionally sane but mostly weird 11:54 pm.
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Annsley's words.
She tried to fall in love but failed.
She learned everything the hard way.
To be on top, you must sacrifice.
She's alone.
Putting distance between people and herself.
She's losing everyone.
Hell of a complicated girl.
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