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my empty shell
Friday, October 28, 2005
ok. another new blog. guess it's like those pirates. never put all the eggs in one basket. never wanting one particular person get too close. it's almost like a defence step i think. i hope no one reads my blog but then again, even if people do, i don't care. i like writing but sometimes, i don't make sense and i get a bit too windy. i resemble a cat licking her wounds at home, not wanting to expose to the outside world. hmmm.. maybe i would follow emily bronte in her footsteps. she wrote Wuthering Heights while living in seclusion of her own. no one was with her. i don't think she had any lovers or whatsnot. all she had at the beginning of her life was only her sisters and brother but they left anyhow. how did she cope with loneliness and seclusion? i'd have gone nuts! maybe i would put her under friendster's who i want to meet. but she's dead. oh well. hmmm.. in case if anyone's wondering, well.. my "seclusion" is only for a while; when i get sick of the outside world. it's good to have some peace to myself. my world. no need to please anyone. i can do whatever i want.
keep having to remind myself someday, someone would read this blog....... it's a bit of a pain in the neck. =(
i love this song. it's When Your Spirit Gets Weak by Plus One. it's really calming and soothing. it kinda make me feel better about my prediacament or myself and the emotions i'm feeling. friends can only do that much. somehow, problems i have, it's hard to explain to them or tell them the extent of the problems. well, it's just the theory of you-will-know-only-if-u-r-in-the-same-shoes. still, i appreciate them and their listening ear. it feels nice to know u r cared for. however, i still feel as empty as ever, or worse. it feels as if i've got to be strong for myself. no one is going to support me if i fall. i have only me, myself and no one else to rely on.
i'm gonna post the lyrics. this is the kind of song u'd come crying for when u're feeling down but forget when u're happy and stuff. it's like a listening ear which is always here for you.
"When Your Spirit Gets Weak"
We beg to borrow We beg to steal We beg forgiveness We beg to feel We beg for love I guess we beg for hate We beg for everything And pray it's not too late
What everybody's tryna' feel I guess we're tryna' heal Everybody's got to kneel No way to reinvent the wheel Everybody's got to Stand up on their feet Everybody needs a dream When the spirit gets too weak
{c h o r u s} So when your spirit gets too weak When the water seems too deep When you think there's just no way I'll be there for you night and day When the mountain Seems too steep When your spirit gets too weak When you think there's just no way I'll be there for you night and day
We beg for happiness We beg for tears We beg for courage Just to overcome our fears We beg to rise above And hope we never fall We beg for everything And pray He hears our call
What everybody's tryna' feel I guess we're tryna' heal Everybody's got to kneel No way to reinvent the wheel Everybody's got to Stand up on their feet Gotta be there for your brother When the spirit gets too weak
{c h o r u s}
Although the road is rough And sometimes you feel Like it ain't enough We'll be there for each other We'll find the way
{c h o r u s}
i'm not going to bother if my blog entry is long. well, it is always long. short entries are rare. haha. i actually came with the intention of relating all, no, some of the things that have been bugging me. oh well. maybe some other time. i feel good after listening to the song. no way i'm gonna dwell in those rubbish. this song is my psychologist. cheers. may it help me as much it helps others. =)
♥ occasionally sane but mostly weird 3:12 pm.
Prelude
Annsley's words.
She tried to fall in love but failed.
She learned everything the hard way.
To be on top, you must sacrifice.
She's alone.
Putting distance between people and herself.
She's losing everyone.
Hell of a complicated girl.
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